i've moved on

yup. for a long time.

ache.

i thank You that its surfacing now. I've not had this stirring within for a long time.

take away these feelings if they're not from You Dad, I don't want to hold on to it (though I dread it and want to). I will choose to surrender.

I want to seek You first and foremost.

Dad, You know the desires of my heart.. (it aches now in fact)

help me let go, help me let go. 

i don't want to hope in something that isn't meant.

i sigh. 

cuz the words can't come out.