full throttle.

another day.
been awhile ya..
currently sick :(
caught the flu bug since thursday..

anyways... didn't do much work :meds made me drowsy... fast. :(
anyways to day was great :)
didn't go for cg cuz i wanted to rest...
took the meds and slept
woke up at 1.30 and had lunch.
recieved a call from jo and we talked :)
haven't talked to this guy for AGES! neither seen him for that long too..
he's been askin for ppl to accompany him.. (seems like everyone is lazy on a sunday afternoon)
after much bugging by himi finally decided to come out hahahaha
after all... i haven't spent time with my best buddy for ages..
walked to united square and walked round to find out that there wasn't any starbucks or coffee bean outlet.. (he was dying for one)
so what next?
took a cab to suntec
hahahahahahahaha
he's been havin trouble walkin cuz of his leg muscle.. so ya.
went straight for the coffee bean and chill out :)
ice blended black forest thank you. :)
stuffed down my meds along with it too..
and we talked....talked.... and talked... haa...
had a great time
haven't did this for ages!
he was sharing abt his ex-stead (a term commonly used long ago, but refers to ex-girlfriend) how he caught her and another guy making out in her room....
wow.
at first i totally forgot abt this incident.. but yeah... i do remember it. it was dramatic man.
he slapped her in the end. neat.
that was 7 yrs ago man..
(we've been friends for THAT long?! nah... 8yrs)
talked alot abt his army life hahaha
his platoon jokes and all
basically talked abt life and all..
sad to know that some ppl i know who were together but have broken up... :(
talked abt tau pok hahaha
rocker... but yeah....
i do wonder where's and how's he...
he hasn't come online since. :(
talked abt roderic... hahahahahaha
i remembered this memorial incident where he called me one evening..
"Hello, Justin?"
yea?
"I got something to tell you"
what?
"I've just lost my virginity :)"
!?WHAT?! O_O
and so on.... hahaha somethin like that... wth... =p
sadly last i heard the girl ended up pregnant...
talked abt sch life!!!
hahaha the good ol' SA days!
Dr Lim's TC (Talk cock) session.
where he would simply... TC with us. no lessons. sweet.
Mr Azmi's ball bearing jokes and helmet punishment where he'd make you wear this super big and funny motorcycle helmet and sit one corner.
Col. Liew's morning fire drill :lol:
went to the arcade after that.
he had his dinner and we left.
home.

The Pope passed away this morning.
was kinda shocked but yeah...
read the papers abt ppl blogging abt death..
how they come to terms to it...
when i think abt it... its kinda creepy...
if u know your time is running out...
its not easy to find peace in this..
only God.. :)
thought abt death...
this blackness..
makes you wonder what happens next eh?
i believe in God :)
thats my faith.
But i realise.. that slowly... my heart has been skeptical..
i became somewhat skeptic of what God can do.
but deep inside... i know God is real.
there's this war in me that always fights back... putting doubts.
but i will fight on... with You.. my King. Give me strength to believe and trust in You once again.
You who created the Earth
You who made the heavens
You who loved us so
You who lives
You who are glorified
You who makes the days of my life so much meaningful
You who changed my life
You my savior.

I want to go back to the basics once more... back to the cross where it all started.
I want You.

read boy meets girl yesterday... though alot abt things..
it talked abt God's grace.. and this story of a woman who couldn't forgive herself... she knew God forgived her but she still couldn't forgive herself...
thats where the writer reminded her of the cross...
it was our very sins that drove Jesus to the cross.
We, caused Jesus to die. God's son.
thats the worst sin...right? what could be worst than killing God's son?
rape? no.
Murder? no.
abortion? no.
pre-marital sex?no.
masturbation? no.
nothing comes close to that... and if that - that act of killing His own son - can be forgiven.... the rest is history.
i was amazed when i read that...
nvr had i once seen it this way... abt His grace and love...
and i want to find out more about His love...

onwards. i wanna see a revival in me.
wanna go back to the word...
i've finally seen the importance of reading His words..
i'm an example of what would happen if u don't read but just go with the flow...
my heart's hardened...
became skeptical....
but yeah...
impossible is possible to you.
that.... I believe.
gotta equip with the armour of God.
arm myself with the sword of the spirit.
going to war for my King.
this world of war.
i want to learn to depend on You again. not on myself, not on my friends, not on my leaders, not on my lover, but You. First.
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Full throttle.

i won't let anything hold me back...
even if it means letting go of you...
if you'd allow me to take you on this ride then lets do it.
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recently liked this song again.. haha
i used to like it for its tune (very nice chill out atmsphere)
but as i listened to its lyrics...

Massive attack - Protection

This girl I know needs some shelter
She don't believe anyone can help her
She's doing so much harm, doing so much damage
But you don't want to get involved
You tell her she can manage
And you can't change the way she feels
But you could put your arms around her

I know you want to live yourself
But could you forgive yourself
If you left her just the way
You found her

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a boy and i'm a girl
But you know you can lean on me
And I don't have no fear
I'll take on any man here
Who says that's not the way it should be

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

She's a girl and you're a boy
Sometimes you look so small, look so small
You've got a baby of your own
When your baby's grown, she'll be the one
To catch you when you fall

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a girl and i'm a boy (x4)

Sometimes you look so small, need some shelter
Just runnin round and round, helter skelter
And I lean on your fears
Now you can lean on me
An that's more than love
That's the way It should be
Now I can't change the way you feel
But I can put my arms around you
That's just part of the deal
That's the way i feel
I put my arms around you

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a boy and i'm a girl (x4)