update.

rights..... been a while.
so here's the scoop.
1. I've finished school
2. Our grad show was great (yesterday was the last day)
3. Everyone's going their direction :4. Most likely not able to step into the place i called my 2nd home
5. I didn't go to Jakarta due to reasons
6. Sent them off... :(
7. I'm doing ok.
8. I STILL have not recieved my enlistment letter!
9. I've not talked to her nor seen her for a while.
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did a stupid thing this mornin... :(
shan't elaborate but the feeling REALLY stinks.
under siege.
I need the sword to fight back.

went down to sch to pack up our exhibition stuff
Helda came along and we managed to finish it :)
decided to go to my grandma's place... been a long time since i went there
and i wanna take the time to walk round the place.. brought my cam.
i dunno why but recently i've had this urge to travel...
there's certain scenery in my head... its calling out to me..
it silent... but beautiful.
i can't describe it.... but i'll know it when i see it.
i wanna find it
that brief experience in my mind is ..... wow.
and so... off to explore.
reached grandma's place earlier than the rest :)
talked with everyone
glad to see them well :D
decided to go off after dad came.
wanna go jalan jalan around
auntie jessie came with mei mei her lovable dog
she showed me this place....
it was beautiful... a place i never knew existed!
it was a cloudy day.. but it did set the atmosphere well... the shades was great..
the trees... the breeze...
took loads of pics...
it was paradise to me... :)
if i were to show you the pics u'd think i'm in mc ritchie resovoir ;)
this is the woods behind.
will upload 'em once i get the card reader from my bro. (he'll be back tmr)
came back to see cousin engie with nic and iain :)
been a looong time since i saw them...
had a great time with them.
nic was as talkative and animated as ever! hahaha funny girl
iain was talking about his girlfriends in... hahaha... malay
great to see him learning it too. nic and my turn soon.
it was fun!
they left @ 7
had dinner after that...
missed the food there... there's nothing like peranakan food!!
makes me feel so so at home and comfy :)
I'm peranakan and i'm proud of it. ;)
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service was good :)
its been a long time... (for me)..
felt a lil like a stranger...
yet... You chose me to lead the team that day.
that was what i constantly told myself that morning.
its a privelage to serve. :)
went jalan with the brothers to PS and balek kampong (went home).
during prayermeet... someone (i think shirls) shared about choosing You...
true.
i wanna do that too...
I will choose You.
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recently joined the naruto craze.
ha.
its niceee :)
thanks to Chi for supplyin me all 134 eps :D
(surprising she herself is into it too)
she's getting better...
:)
spent some time talking with her @ esplanade..
shared abt stuff..
basically just a time to let loose and jus talk.. :)
i know she'll catch me.
and i would catch her too... if she allowed >_<
anyways.. it was good.

had a class gathering for the last time... :spent the day fixin weirdy's laptop and formating it for the (insert number here)th time! -_-
after that, mother waited for us and we went off to hmv.
had dinner @ marche. (my first time at the heeren outlet, its nice~)
enjoyed ourselves there~ took photos and talked :)
first time outing with mother...
sadly not everyone was there... :(
riz, hellen, helda, rosa, jayson, chi, phuong, emil and me..
james, cj, radzi, daffi, kenneth, ryan, michael, ariel, vivian, barry didn't come.
o well... it was fun while it lasted. :)
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chose not to go to indo.
mainly due to financial problem.
my bro's off to thailand..
and i didn't really wanted to go...the enthusiasm...just died. :(
told the rest abt it.. but didn't know how to tell jayson...
o well..
glad he took it in ok..
went to the airport to send them off..
wanted to buy gifts for them but didn't have enough time.. and i didn't have enough cash... ended up buying (you guessed it).. cards. >_<
wrote and wrote... was kinda rushed.
met jayson @ paya lebar.
we talked... :)

finally... at the departure gate...
gave them the cards...
...
shook hands and hugged hellen..
.. and as they walked through that door..
something inside me just left.
"you won't know what you have till you lose it."
thats what happened...
as i stood there lookin through the glass...seeing them.. ppl whom i've spent a good 2 yrs with... go off... i felt alone.
len looked back one more time..
i'm gonna miss her.
her cute and adorable character..
her undecisiveness
her cheeky smile
her face.
God really blessed her and worked through her life this year :)
it was shown clearly. ;)
was a lil envious of her.. but i repented.
happy for this sis.
had an unforgetable exp with her.

gonna miss mil
his irritating nature
his cheeky-ness
his stupidity
his "i'm smart, i know, i know."
his "yes i know, i'm the most handsome guy here in class."
his presence

rosa for
her "bitchiness"
her wacky-ness
her princess nature

jayson
his interesting character
how he chose to "endure" me..
times spent talking alot abt stupid things.

i'll miss you ppl. alot.
wishing you all the best in whatever you do in the future.
we may or may not see each other again..
but thanks for the memorial time.
.
was really sad....
got a lil emo.
messaged weirdy.. o well.
was listenin to a song which i heard over the radio the night before.. and it really suited the mood.. and timing.


Tired, but I ain't sleepin'
Thinking about some sad affair
And why I should be leavin'
'Cause some of these thoughts
Only seem to take me out of here

Yeah, these habits are so hard to break
They're the most easy to make
These habits are so hard to break
And the most easy to make

Thinking about tomorrow
Tired from all the time I spared
On what I still believe in
When none of my talk
Ever seems to get me anywhere

Yeah, these habits are so hard to break
Are the most easy to make
These habits are so hard to break
Are the most easy to make
So easy to make

So long
Night-night friends, so long
So long
Will it ever happen again?
You know that I've been waiting for you
I've been created for you
So long
You know that I've been fading from you
Nothing could save me from you
So long

Tired, but I ain't dreamin'
Falling into solid earth
On why I must be leavin'
'Cause one of these days
I'm gonna pull out all my hair

Yeah these habits are so hard to break
And the most easy to make
Well, these habits are so hard to make
And the most easy to break
So easy

So long
Night-night friends, so long
So long
Will it ever happen again?
You know that I've been waitin' for you
I've been created for you
So long
You know that I have faded from you
And nothing could save me from you
So long

Thinking about tomorrow, Beth Orton.

beautiful song.
the chorus caught my ear immediately.. wow.
i thought it was by alanis but its not.

has a few meanings to me..
dedicated to them... and you.
you were on my mind when i was listening to this song too.. thats why i messaged ya.
.
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caught the much awaited Star Wars: episode III with the class on the opening day!
woo!
and we had center row seats!
woo!
the acting was bad!
boo!
the effects were good!
woo!
yoda....
Woo and Boo!
darth vader...wasn't really the vader i knew..
BOO!
grievious was cool
Woo!
lightsaber scenes!
woo!
music!
woo!

ok enough... i could go on..
basically.. it wasn't so bad.. neither was it so good :the acting just threw me off sadly. :(
but enjoyed it with the class..
rushed to the "grammy award building" aka. Parkview for the fashion students' grad show.
was great~
loved the music too~ (jayson complained of me constantly tapping the floor with my foot due to the music)
took photos.
parkview is neat.
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bah.
i guess... thats it.

Forgot to mention:
caught Lord of the dance with gemia. was good but not up to expectations sadly, (was so small!!) the last part caught me though..
caught jungle book by the ddr06 students. enjoyed :)
susi, winnie and amy came to watch it too. amy slept! i couldn't really focus much durin the first few scenes.. too wordy and slang >_< but overall.. good. :)


so long. night night friends so long.