when a sudden change of plans thwarts your direction.
what would you do?
my path's uncertain now and along with it, a lil regret.
but above all, trust is budding me to move on.
been an emotional ride.
was rather overwhelmed last week after ss
many ppl were like
"this is your last week right?"
"wah going in the day before your birthday..."
and all that..
it kinda gets into you.
it did for me.
i don't want the pity, really.
cuz self pity will seep in.
and it did
i was saaad.
was rather crappy that night..
was chatting with germs
and thinking back abt it, i think it was hilarious... haha
it was such a dry conversation.. hahahaha
so dry u can hear and feel the desert wind..
and she was trying hard to start it!!
sorry sorry sorry sorry!!
haha but thanks for the encouragement though, really. :)
it strengthened me.
after that, i decided to distract myself and wake myself up by dota-ing.
no point thinking too much about it.
just pulls you down even more.
wake up, move on.
this morning was another ride (yes i can get rather emo)
called up cmpb to ask abt my enlistment status cuz i have yet to recieve my letter
i was told it still wasn't finalised..
and of now, i'm not supposed to go in this fri.
when i heard the news
i didn't know whether to be happy or not.
i want to go in early without delays so i can come out earlier.
quite a few people i know are going in on that day too.
at the same time it means i can help out on sat service and train the people.
wahaha
my bro told me..
if thats the case, i could've continued my degree earlier on.
and thats what hit me.
i didn't continue my studies one thing was cuz of army.
and now delays and uncertainty. a wasted opportunity.
which now accuses me
something jus prompted me to trust in You..
i'm still in Your hands, and thats my greatest comfort in this moment of doubts.
help me to take this with an open heart
help me release my own plans unto You and just go with Yours even when i can't understand it for Your ways are higher than mine.
if man's greatest wisdom is Your foolishness, i can't imagine Your wisdom.
You bring me peace.
sorry to all i've chat this mornin.
was rather distracted hence even more "dry" conversations... -_-u