a friend

was bored at home, so i did this, got the idea from a photo.
quite happy with the result though but alas still much to improve.
i've had a fascination over clouds or any paintings/drawings including beautiful clouds thus the huge background though there isn't much cloud :p
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and some older ones





i had fun doing this.


i know i've not posted for a long time, one month to be exact...
sorry.
september was a ride for me, went up for a long while (tiring/struggling)
and went down for a short while before going back up
but its when i'm going up, He's there up there waiting.

its been such a long time that i dunno what to blog!
hahaha!!
anyways last month was our anniversary which i enjoyed :)
i was happy with the youth's clip~
was trying out a kind of diff apprach to the video by giving it
an opening title which just popped into my head in my office
was excited to let everyone see it~!
though i have to guard my heart from pride.
(which is why i always want to have someone i can look up to)

anyways i've been MIA for a week due to leg infection gone wrong :S
i my was surprised when the specialist told me to take 1 week MC..
but in my heart i was screaming for joy :P (who wouldn't)
sad to say it wasn't as fruitful as i thought it to be
spent mainly watching anime and playing games..
i couldn't go out (leg hurts and not suppossed to anyways)
took time to think too..
i was so bored.
so i questioned my desire for japan.
if i were there now.. would i also be doing this?
rotting?
that was a possibility
but i thought to myself that it's cuz i couldn't go out.
if i were in japan, i'd be everywhere, getting lost and exploring.
i dunno why i've such a longing/craving for japan
hahaha and no its not the japanese girls, its the culture that attracts me :D
but if i stayed home in japan, what would i do?
hmmmmmm tv, computer, games, drawing.

and then it dawn on me..
i need a friend.
a companion.
someone who shares a similar interest
someone we can look to each other for ideas and such
someone i am keen to see & share my life with
someone i can be open and honest to
someone who i can simply be me.

when was the last time i actually asked someone out?
excluding times when i was already outside and bored and asked someone to pop along if they were nearby.
its been a loooong time i guess
cuz i can't remember when.
when was the last time i asked someone out for a movie?
when was the last time i talked to my friends about my life?
like the shows i'm watching that i enjoy or my future ideas/dreams
in fact, when was the last time i talked to anyone about my dreams too?
rather, when was the last time i talked/shared about my life?

i can't remember.

i've become quite a loner.
all i do is listen, that it.
and if i were to talk i realise i talk about other people more than myself. (not in a bad way)
i don't share about my own experiences, i share about my friend's



and i can't sit here waiting for that someone to appear
no, not anymore

i'm going to look for you, friend.