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what a way to end my cny...
had a great time out for the entire day only to
wake up suddenly to shoutings 

before i knew it, my bro has left the house.
my dad chased him out.
and i got angry
cuz its the same old stupid thing.
he would get drunk
and make a mess out of everything
shouting
throwing
scolding
waking everyone up
and i thank God he asked me to go down to look for my brother.
i was friggin angry.
the thoughts i had in my mind were scary.
thankfully, by God's grace.. i didn't snap.
found my bro and he decided to stay over at a friend's place.
took time off to cool down..
many things went through my mind..
i was worried yet at the same time angry
my mum is already very old..
how can i not worry for her?
anything happens to her
i'd definitely blame him.
ironically i was sharing about love in my morning fellowships in camp
and challenged everyone to love someone they don't like more
my boss challenged me to love my dad more.
tell me, how?

thankfully everything's ok..
the only thing i can thank God for is that
in this events, it brings the remaining family closer..





anyways.. here's a so called story of someone i'm amazed

she got married before 25
her husband had a successful career
things went well, but he was a drinker
and she often lived in fear and hide herself when he comes back at night.
even when she was pregnant with her firstborn.
she thought things would get better when the child was borned
after all which husband wouldn't be glad to be a father?
he didn't change a bit.
her son and her lived in fear and suffered..
they would hide in the drain or in the neighbours car
at night when he came back drunk.
even when she was pregnant with the 2nd child.
in fact when she was pregnant
her husband was staying with another woman
and she knew about it;
she was on the bus
and across the road, she saw her husband driving off with another woman.

so she went to confront the women
along with her first child
her husband got angry and scolded them
he continued staying with the women
9 months into pregnancy, she was staying alone
her husband never came back
and she was worried who would send her to hospital when it was time
fortunately her in-laws visited her and was shocked
she gave birth 2 days later.
her husband didn't know she gave birth.
it was his brother who informed him
but he only visited her a month later.

and all the years, she went through all the abuse.
along with her children.
he would come back drunk and scold and shout and smash.
he gambled and loss and they had to move..

she eventually gave birth to a pair of twins at the age of 42
and yes its jem & me.

and we've been through it ourselves.
and i still wonder why she did not divorce..
even i think it'd be better for a divorce..


she stayed for her children.
all these years

as she stood there telling me all these for the first time
i was sad yet amazed by her perseverance...
how she could stay by a cruel man

"for the children."

she could write a biography of her life.
i would like her to.
the best mum in the world.