tell it.

was reading heart of an artist the other day and this thing struck me
"Those of you who are musicians, I just have to say if you're doing church music but would really rather be doing something else (like "making it" in the Christian music industry), don't do church music. Do something else. That goes for all of us artists. Don't look at the church as a stepping-stone to something more important."

i couldn't understand it at first
took a second read to capture it.

are we "guilty" of it?
these past few days only convicted me of that.
yes i really want to bless the church and the service
churning out productions/visuals/photos/media
but my initial mindset is wrong.
i've been seeing the church as a testing grounds
if it's well received
if it's good
and its wrong.

it's God's place of worship
and it demands excellence.

and more ever,
i've don't know how to impact ppl via animation in svc
besides ess..
so far, i've been using it for short clips
like the christmas cup, the microphone
and the upcoming handphone..
probably also cuz i don't have animators to share it with
but thats not the case,
it's because i've been targeting the wrong audience.
i'm not here to just publicise for the church
but even more
i'm here to spread the message just as well
to impact the non-believers more than the believers.
evangelising through the media.

and personally
i need the faith to belive that God will work through it
no matter how it looks.
nowadays i watch animation for looks
and i've taken bad drawing = lousy
which is a mindset i want to change
by Your grace and mercy~!
really!

afterall, the story is the most impt.
and it's the best love story ever writen in history.

i know that i've said i want to study in japan
live there
impact the people there
help the people there
and yes, i love the culture
but 2 yrs ago,
i distinctly remembered something ps ben said
when he prophesied over me
to have a wider/enlarged vision
for the whole world.

it's like a canvas for the taking.
and when jasmine asked me again on sat
"where are you going after ns? japan?"
i started thinking again.
my audience isn't just the japanese crowd.
so will You guide my paths.
i don't want to do this just because it's a place i like.

my only complaint is that i don't have enough places for
constructive feedbacks in svc
many times it's "it's nice!", "it's good!"
thats all..

for a visual artist
concepts should be more important than the looks
after all, looks are attainable
everyone can do it in fact

and its probably a reason why i have a desire to move out,
not leave church,
but just a desire to go out to the world.
i've a desire to grow as an artist
and i feel restricted here
all i can do now, is grow people, disciple them
i'm not complaining about that :)
i love teaching people >:D

i really want to go back to schooling
not because of the paper
(if i'd rather, i'd start working instead of studying for the sake of the paper)
but because of the environment and the people.
working with people from your field can really boost ideas, creativity
because you get to see how others interpret things their way
and it's inspiring :)
but of course
who says one need to go to sch to have those?
you can find that in the working world too
and its more practical.
but,
schooling is my only ticket out of singapore for long periods.
i'm bored here in singapore haha
it's too safe here.
and it comes to a point where it's numbing
sensitivity is lost and indifference is built.

i want to see and i want to be able to relate with others.

after all is said and done,

it's still all about You.

"Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name;
make known among the nations what he has done.
Sing to him, sing praise to him;
tell of all his wonderful acts."

ok this is getting long and confusing lol
i'm typing all my thoughts here to organise them
as i read it to myself :p



i've a story to tell
and should be doing so.

on a side note,
Sheridan collage is opening up here sometime next year
anyone interested? :p