in a new light.

our so called brother's night @ chinatown! :P

anyways
have learnt & thought much these pass 2 nights
really greatful for the people who heard me out..
i'm idealistic by nature and with that said
i sometimes need that tug to keep me balanced
to plan for and to do
putting words into actions.
there were somethings i've never even considered before
and i thank you for exposing & suggesting it to me :)

i've learnt much as i shared much.
God has been tugging some heart issues
and it was quite difficult to get it out
it was humbling
and i'm thankful for your probing aka kaypoh-ness
it really got me thinking!
and i realised how superficial some things were in my life
its not about how things happened, its why?

another area God has been tugging
is romance. LOL yes you read that right, romance. :)
i've to change some old mindsets of how i view it
david asked me to at least start considering a relationship
something i thought i'd never hear in my life LOL
not that he's asking me to find one
but just give it a thought.
after all, we're of age to do so too.
again i have to clarify,
not that we wait till a certain age limit to pursue one
but to seriously think about what kind of person
you'd want to live with
what characters appeal to you and what not
i've never considered these questions seriously lol
and its something new to me.
i was surprised abt it in fact which i realised i'm
still stuck with the "good-ol-youth-anti-bgr" thingy LOL


i'm sure some of you guys have seen this comic which i posted long time ago :)

copyright (c) 2004 Kazu Kibuishi

my view on it has grown to be a skeptical one like it sadly
i try to run from it.
cuz i'm afraid of being hurt.

and God shot me back with something i said to others recently,
it's uncertain times that make life an adventure
and where is the faith if it wasn't uncertain?

"God knows everything.. but that doesn't mean our task is to discover
what He already knows or to worry that we might miss His perfect plan.
Our responsibility is to love Him, study His Word, deepen our relationship
with Him, and learn to evaluate our choices in light of biblical wisdom.
If we're doing these things, we can make our decisions in the confidence that we aren't somehow missing God's will.

Will we fail sometimes and make mistakes? Of course we will. But the possibility of failure should never paralyze us." - Joshua Harris, Boy meets Girl.

possibility of failure should never paralyze us.
something i want to apply for myself.

i've been running away because of that,
i'm afraid of the hurt that comes from the possibility of a failed courtship
eg. a girl/guy you're attracted to (though she/he isn't aware of it) tells you she/he likes someone else. that'd hurt right?

but then if i keep running, i won't be able move on from that right.
i'd be disillusioned into just wanting to like her aka. secret admirer
and i'd miss out on what God wants for me.
i should be thankful if God chooses to close a door on a potential relationship
it'd hurt definately, but above that, God cares for me and knows that it's not for me

sometimes we ask that age old question, what if i can't find the one God has planned me to be with?
does that mean we become paranoid? and seek any potential spouses for a chance?
no!
stick to your responsibilities and trust God to work it out for ya!

learning to view this area in a new light~


anyways, was playing around in illustrator :D


alot of planning for media ministries!! hohoho :D