personally

i can't understand Your love.
at my lowest point, You showered me with Your blessing
some part of me couldn't accept it, undeserving.
while the other just couldn't stop but praise in awe and wonder.
Seriously.

the holidays are making me lazy and it isn't good.
i don't want to waste time!
it's not been really fruitful, honestly.
struggles and such.

but despite my unfaithfulness,
God surprised me.
have been askin God to bless me financially
and to show me His goodness
that i may speak of it
and He did!
my eldest bro suddenly dropped by and visit us last night and he decided to pay for my air ticket to japan!
he paid for the entire ticket sayin he recieved extra income from his company, he blessed my mum and dad too with extra allowance!
this is something only God can do!!
Japan here i come! :D

i will praise Your name because You are Good and You deserve it
and on i will go on my quest to make You famous :)
kudos to You


spread the joy, spread the love.

was reading up Psa119
this verse caught my attention:
v47 for I delight in Your commands because I love them.
v48 I lift up my hands to Your commands, which I love, and I meditate on Your decrees.

how can i love Your word more?
to see Your words differently and to rely on it for everything..
frankly i'm a lazy reader, i'd rather read christian literature which speaks it practically and gives out already digested and easy to understand notes about the word.
but thats not the way.
i should experience God's word myself.
its a personal thing.
why bother asking God to speak to me personally when i don't even read alot
i'm limiting God that way.

change the way I see your Word.
i want to desire it more.