personally

was doing some heavy reflecting today and it was really great.
many areas to change.

was asking God how can i be more humble.

and God answered me unknowingly,  i had a date/deadline to meet tonight for a rather picky couple and was getting nervous by the minute as i rush to finish it and hope it meets their expectations. i prayed and in the midst of it, i realised that there and then, God had humbled me.
i couldn't rely on my own abilities, i could only rely on Him.
i told God, that i'd do my best and let Him handle the rest.
despite it.. i was still afraid!
throughout the day i kept hoping by some way or another, they'd be late or not come today..
the couple came (on time, much to my dismay lol) and i went to face them.

all in all, the couple was pleased! PRAISE GOD!! :D
but in it, came another point i noted of myself.

this was the 2nd time i met this couple which the first was a rather memoriable one as they sat down with me to point out every mistake and things they were unhappy with.
i took it in quite ok, but as i went about doing their work, i found myself complaining more and more. they were like what i'd call 'typical chinese singaporean', looking very chinese and had a rather picky taste. (hard to please too)
till it hit me, that they're having a church wedding this week. what did that mean?
they were bro & sis in Christ.
i never thought of it that way, and that hit me hard.
i judged them off as unbelievers because of their looks/personalities and the fact it hit me that they were believers meant that i've become someone to treats people by their 'status'
why i say this was cuz all the couples whom i shot that went through a church wedding, all had the same kind of style.. english, young looking, easy going,etc and i was so used to it that i've passed off others by their looks.

my client didn't "look" like the christian type.
this truth hit me hard just now. and i repented.
who am i to judge?
God loves everyone.

which links me to my next area..
i've got a new colleague in my office and we hit it off rather fast, he's young and in his 1st year of poly. we were chatting and such and i realized he was rather arrogant, true he has reasons to be, but i, the one who constantly begs to differ started clashing. (eg. he would say how great is this and that, and i, would say whats so great about it and shoot it down)
he liked to constantly see what i'm working on (enthusiastic i guess), he took my headphone jack and played with it without asking me, dropped it 3 times with me telling him not to drop it twice, i got angry. who does he think he is?
when my boss got angry with him for some other reason, something inside me got happy. and this, strucked me.
was convicted about God's love and that God put him here for a reason (definitely for me to grown to accept people like him (for now))
how am i to share about God's love to him with me disliking him??

i ask God to change my heart.

many areas to change and i really thank Him for revealing all these in a day!
my heart is deceitful.