personally

been on a working spree and also wow-ing spree which exlains the lack of updates.

anyways, work has been eating up most of my time and will continue to do so as i seek directions for the coming year. 

2 days back i met weirdy on the way to work, at first, i just pretended that i didn't see her on the train and tried to convince myself that she's just someone who looked alot like her. so i got off the train and went my way, heard running steps behind me and brushed it off, couldn't be. many memories came back at that moment, i brushed it off. 

till i went up the escalator, she shouted my name. caught.

she looked different from the time i last saw her a year back but same old girl i guess, we chatted awhile before parting ways. now the question that bugged me after was, why was i avoiding her?

that bugged me that morning, which i concluded, i just didn't  want to think too much about it and just brushed away the idea of her again, in essence, i was denying myself. she was an old flame of mine, and that arose some hopes in me, which again, i brushed it off.  

yes i know, i'm cruel to myself. but i know myself. i dun let go and move on easily.

that night, jayson, chi, hellen, joanne (len's friend) and me caught a screening for aardman films at national museum. it was really nice and refreshing! i've not caught so many animations and enjoyed it for such a long time!! a Q&A was soon followed with the co-founder and one ofthe directors and it was a nice fruitful time. 

the way he put it as animators are actors in their own world is so so true. being emotionally spent while doing a character is a good sign of showing how involved in the role we are which i asked myself, when was the last time i was like that? years ago.

it was a good time. really thank God for the opportunity and time!

work has been quite tough for me which i'm finding myself to be growing more and more unhappy but i guess i should voice it out soon. all the more i shouldn't quit. 

cuz it's areas for me to grow in! humility and respect to others.  the artist in me must be smaller while God takes center stage.

seeking God for direction and vision. 

next year is going to be different :)

animation, media, arts.