personally

Lesson learnt under the rain.

I was stranded at the MRT this afternoon as it was pouring.
I stood and wait.
I prayed a simple prayer of asking for the rain to be stopped.
I waited.


I prayed again, this time lowering my request to just asking the rain to be lighter.


Soon it did.


But before I dashed across, it struck me, why did I lower my faith?
Was it so that in case the rain didn't stop, I could justify to myself that I still DID ask God to at least lighten up the rain for me to run across?

I stopped as I ponder this question in my head.

I realised that it is a habitual thing of mine to pray first, if it doesn't go as I expect, I'll lower my request.
Doubts come in and I'm reminded of the sermon I just learnt.

Don't lose sight of the undeniable.

Sad to say I didn't wait, I took my chance and ran as the rain got lighter.
I argued to myself, of course, if i wait, the rain will definitely get lighter. thats nature.
i wanted the rain to stop now.

that when I realised how I was reacting.

I was demanding God to do something now, I didn't want to wait.
The now now now syndrome.

Sorry.

You do things in Your time.
Give me humility and patience to follow through.