personally

was suddenly overwhelmed by the mass influx of info and task this morning :S

it really got me distracted and i lost my focus (i can't multi-task well lol)

decided to spend time seeking God. to be a mary and not a martha. 

I was refreshed! 

"People don't necessarily need to be sinful to be ineffective for God, they need only be confused about what God wants. To avoid Satan's deceit, study God's Word carefully and regularly. When you know what God says, you will not fall for Satan's lies." 

taken from study bible.

the above note is so true. and it's happening to me :( 

it also falls in line to what God has been telling me last week and reinforced again on Sat's sermon.

to know Him more through His Word. 

I admit, i hate reading and not only that, i've developed a habit to read christian literatures more than the Word as i find them "more interesting" and helps me understand more.  Fast forward that habit for a few years and the bible is non-existent to me.

i struggled with the notion "want answers? seek the bible!" how is the war history of Israel relevant to what I'm doing/going through now?

i realised i'm impatient.

and i learnt, that it is relevant. it shows God's character and helps me to know Him more through these events. knowing God is Everything.

I was sharing to a brother last night that I don't want a one-sided relationship with God but rather, an intimate close relationship in which we communicate and interact.

I don't want to know about God, i want to Know God. 

the bible study note above was taken from Isaiah 36.

an interesting "battle" in which the Assyrians did a literal verbal assault to the Israelites. The enemy wanted to stir fear, confusion and even tempted them with food and land. Words are indeed more powerful than weapons when they have the power to instill things in people. They get past all our defences and go straight to the heart.  heck even I was confused when i read through it (LOL). but the people stood their ground and refused to listen. even at the face of doom did they not even budge. they were standing on a promise from God, that God would deliver them from harm. God would defend them.  (isa37:35)

These people trusted God with their lives. A God so personal He would come down to defend them Himself. Thats my God :)

And He wants to be known to me. I believe God wants me to know Him more than even my own desires to. And I want to include Him in my life, to be a part of my every moment. My fortress, my refuge, my defender.

looked through some of my old entries in my white book and was encouraged by what was written way back. The vision and dream that I had, the burden for the people and the arts, plans and goals, its all there.

am recharged.

thanks Dad. I needed it :)

turning to You