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I've gone back to school :)

In fact, as of this email, its already been 3 weeks (yes thats FAST!). It happened interestingly though, I was supposed to submit my portfolio by 17th July, I had 3 weeks then. Unfortunately, bazaar, reservist and falling ill each took 1, and also, i was honestly quite reluctant (i still desire for overseas school!!). So, a day before the submission, like all art students (or least most that i know haha), last min prep mode kicks in and i start to compile all my drawings and such. Many people often bugged me asking how was my portfolio prep to which i would only reply with a sigh lol. 

Anyways, i submitted. I prayed too, before the interview, that since God showd me this sch and allowed me to register, I told Him that if I'm accepted, I'll accept that this was where He wanted me to go (though 1 part of me was hoping I'd not get accepted LOL)
the interview came and the person looked through my application form, asked a few questions and said "Ok, you're in. thats it." 

I was taken aback actually and didn't know how to respond. I didn't know whether to thank God or not. This mixed feeling stuck through to me for awhile hahaha.

I told David about it and he replied me saying that i'm unsatisfied because i got in "too easily" and its not by my own works, it was God's and i could almost picture Him smirking at me :p.



I surrendered myself and went ahead.

God has been wanting me to learn to accept His love and to not always want to prove myself. And He constantly reminds me this "Not by my hands that I am saved".

Being accepted in school was one such lesson.

The next was paying school fees.

Me wanting to be independant want to pay my fees on my own, but soon bargained down to paying half out of my own pocket while my family pay the other half.

After I paid, I recieved a message from my brother saying he wants to pay my way through school.

I couldn't accept it but again was reminded by the above note "Not by my hands.."

My bro mentioned this:

"spend some time to thank God for having everything in place for you

u r truly blessed

n so is jem (my twin)

i m jus playing my role in what god has already planned for you"

Through that conversation with my eldest brother, I then began to really realised at how blessed I am and how much more God wants to bless me.



Anyways, schools fine, still adapting to school life and pace haha :)



CL-ship has been interesting and tough

took me awhile to adjust to everyone :)

though still having difficulties leading them as a group due to me not being very choleric (always worried if i make a bad choice)

but am thankful for the supportive people :D

I realised my group consists alot of phlegmatics and mels!! Which means its usually quite quiet haha which makes me a lil uncomfortable >_<

learning how to bond and motivate the group more too 

though i really enjoy small cosy groups i got to learn how to break that and adapt to a bigger one now.

God has been blessing me through the group and its encouraging when people open up their lives to me :)



Its been 2 months already? 




Serving alongside 

jus