Monday~

Last nite wasn't good.. . . watched shows and didn't get worked done... :(
was watching vandread and others...
nearly fell.. (actually did)
but thank God...
for putting that verse in my mind :)
for putting others in my mind... :)
saw the photos... :D
was encouraged..

i know why its happening already... :)
i've always thought it was for another reason which now i know i'm wrong.
Really learnt alot from wild @ heart...
abt how ppl.. when they are vulnerable... bare... longing...
they are more prone to lust... pornography.. masturbation
cuz it "fills" them... temporarily... and makes them come back for more. addiction.

even i was wondering.. hahaha... abt sex... o_O
yah.. many would think its "dirty" and all... and i do too... but come to think of it... God created sex.. many of is always link sex to lust.. and i do too.. wanna break away from that mindset. Sex was made
for a reason. :)

Reading wild @ heart... really spoke to me alot..
walking away from the women...
how he told ppl who has made woemn the center of their lives/universe to break up.. a man shouldn't get his strength from the women but he should offer it to her. You don't need women to be a great man and as a great man you don't need a women... O_o
hahaha
its quite hard yah...
i haven't been talking much to her...
i don't think she knows.. and sees it but...
i miss her..
alot..
i want to talk to her...
i want to listen to her...
i want to hold her hands again...
....
hahaha.. enough of the mushy mushy rubbish.. but yah
i juz miss her..
today she was stressed... was standing beside her at the pillar.. hahaha
her fave "stress" pillar which she'll always hug when she's stress...
i so much wanted to hold her hand...to let her know that i'm there..
but no i didn't... and i'm scared i might fall back to sq1 >_<
i wanna get myself right with God first...
women ain't the answer..
and i wanna choose God over her.
walking away from the women...
not that i will ignore her or whatever.. but yah.. it'll take time..
cuz i noe.. that my missing her... is a sign.
I still have some soul work to do...
i wanna give it all to God.

Today... was rather quiet... lol lots of ppl left early..
leaving emil, jason, chi and me in class.. ahaha
went to old airport earlier for dinner with jason, emil and alycia..
met one of the jewelery design students there.
after dinner we found 2 kittens in the drain.. and it was raining..
we took them out and put it in a box... didn't know what to do.. >_<
we found the mum but she ran away... so we juz waited for the rain to stop... and also for the mum...
met daffi and helda while waiting.. =p
daffi had a bike accident
helda... had a bicycle accident
hahaha >_<
anyways... we decided to put the kittens back into the drain... the rain has already stopped too.
i loved the browinsh grey kitten~! :lol:

came back and helped emil with his V/O (voice over) for his animation... hahahaha
WAS FUN~!!!
hahahaha
called alycia to come and try out too and boy it was FUN!
hahahahahahahahaha !!! SHE CAN ACT!!!! WoW~! hahaha
Real good~! :)

Thank You God for this day..... :)
I need You.
I want You.
I love You.