today.. :p

Today i woke up at 7... O_o...
o well...
mm.. stoned for awhile...
finally moved my lazy butt to spend some time with God.. >_<
but yah.. i wanted to.. and i need to too... hmmm.. couldn't really concentrate... o_O
i dunno y... she was on my mind for a reason... i dunno...
probably due to the music?
took my mind off and started to write down abt the chapter

2Chron10

Rehoboam seeked for advice from the elders & the ppl he grew up with.

He rejected the elders's advice which was to take them back.
Instead, he accepted the advice of the ppl he grew up with.
-He trusted them more?
>No he didn't like the elders's answer, his friends who knew him more gave him the answer he liked.

-He refused to humble himself down and accept them...

- Personally, I felt he rejected God's advice & followed the world's advice.

>Always seek God first~! Don't go to the world for answers! Only God has the (right) answers.

- Don't choose answers that you like, is pleasing or you want to hear because in doing so, you're limiting God, you're limiting yourself.. and it might not be what God wants to tell you or answer you.

>In God expect Anything and Everything.

... when all this was coming in... she was on my mind... what she told me yesterday...
she doesn't know if its him now because.. it just seems far... not possible..
she said IF...if its not him.. she doesn't know if she'll get married at all haha...
we were talking abt marriage.. how a couple married and acted out the song of songs.. :)
told her... even if not him... will still be a man of God...
But she's just clinging onto that hope... that promise.

....wanted to talk to her again...

I cried out just now... to God..
i couldn't concentrate..... . . .
i wanted to find him...
seek him..
and then i realized... i really really wanted to seek him..
when you seek God earnestly, you will find him..
indeed, God doesn't play catch me if you can... haha :)
I asked...
God where are you?

and immediately...
he said..
I am here... in your heart..

hahaha.. wow... couldn't stop smiling.. :) :)

just knowing that you're nearby...in m heart... gives me peace... joy.. comfort... it puts a smile on my face... :)

HALLELUJAH!! WOO~

something came into my heart...
i really wanted to talk to her about it... but....
i don't know if i can.. as i wrote down what to do.. what to tell her... i can't... I'm afraid I'll get emotional.
I'm afraid i'm telling her its not him..
I'm afraid that my hope will kick in.

-If God gave her that hope.. cling on to it..
anything is possible.

what i really want to tell her.. is mainly.. to be prepared in anything and everything.
cuz from what i see from her.. is that... it has to be him.
again I'm not saying no either cuz i don't know too.
but just be prepared.

Wanna ask her this question.
If you really wanted this one thing to happen. And you fast and pray for it and all.. but that thing doesn't happen. What would you do? Honestly.
Think about it.

I'm not telling you to doubt God. but honestly what would you do?

Was it the way/answer you wanted to happen?
or did God choose to do it His way and not your way? :)

This happened to one of my friend... he thought God didn't asnwer his prayer.. he started doubting God.. he left....

Are you willing to give EVERYTHING (eg. your longing) up for God?
-The thought of not being a musician was horrible for my friend.. he really really wants to and already set his eyes on it.. he believes its his calling and he will be a musician. He never answered that quetion properly..
I'm not saying he won't be a musician... in fact from what i heard.. he has a band now...
but its the principal...
willing to go...
be prepared for anything and everything..
Seek first the Kingdom.

Was browsing through the New T and was also reading that chapter again.. made me kinda scared... if i've been guiding her properly... helping her with God. read alot of verse abt flase teachings and teaching for self glorification and all.... made me question myself... made me doubt myself...
BUT! thinking abt it... i know.. God is with me :)
He's with me through all this. And will always be.
remembered what she told me..
God doesn't give a spirit of doubt!! :)

today.. talked with chi also..
she also told me something similar to what she told me yesterday..
the guy she likes.. if she doesn't marry him.. hahaha she might not marry at all.. haha.... o_O

Really encouraged by this verse i came across.
John 14:1-4
"Don not let your hears be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.