ok..

here i am..
in sch now..
been wanting to blog recently...
but its mainly cuz i got a lil emotional i guess...
its just during trips home..
it just comes back... :you.

the only one keeping me going in this... is God..
as the days go i keep wanting to go back
as the days go i keep thinking if it was a stupid thing to do
as the day goes... it makes me regret more.
as the day goes... more of you appears in my mind..
as the day goes.. its gets more
i'd like to hold your hands.... one last time i would rationalise to myself..
but i know that its just being plain selfish....
if i love her.. i should do whats best for us.

ironic that you're simply sleeping next door... haha

dun worry it was never your fault. :) i'm not here to blame you or anything..
if anyone were to be blamed.. it should be me..


as the days go... i can see how God is moving in.....
taking everything else away...
making me vulnerable.... bare... weak.
i know You are calling me...
each day..
and thats what's keeping me going in this direction...

i will regret it now.... but hopefully not later :)


i gotta keep reminding myself.
not to be selfish to her.
holding it all back.

sch work's getting slightly better too...
thank God for that too :)
3rd SS is on in 2 days..
bracing myself for that haha..
to all fellow-ywamers.. lets Fight~! :)

rosa shared to be ALOT abt her trip to melbourne.. haha
learnt that cheers = thank you
tha = thank you
will go there one day too...
after hearin it all from her.. hahaha
:p