back.

After months and months and late nights in sch..
i've finally finished with my major!!!! Argh!
was initially happy with except for the sound!!!
i feel it ruins it all... wanna redo it.
sadly mother wasn't pleased with the quality of works the class sent in...
:(
sad.
sad sad sad sad sad sadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsad.........
i can't rest.
cuz we have an exhibition on monday...
and she told me not to show all the individual works... o_O
hope all goes well..
i'm meeting her tmr to see what i can improve.

got a whee bit emo yesterday... cuz i haven't slept the entire night.. so i couldn't think properly and my emotions just got a lil too much :s
thank God i didn't do or say anythin...
wanted to ask weirdy out.. but she couldn't. thank God.
serious.
:)
gotta learn to fight back my emotions.
fight back with God :)
He's helped me dealt with it... and He will again.
God placed many ppl who are always there for me... and I thank Him for that..

wanna thank God for chi.
i just wanted to talk.. so i decided to sms her what i'm going through..
thank God for her for listening... catching me when i fall..
:)
thanks sis. i owe ya. :D

my bus card expires today..
my coupon expired today
i fell today
i was late
what a coinsidence.

asked God a very simple question.. but i wanted to know the answer personally..
"Will You help me if i ask you?"
if you people know me well..
i'm not very expressive esp when it comes to personal stuff..
(i get extremely nervous....-_-)
i don't actively seek for help when i need.
something i want to learn..
being humble and seek help. not expect help.
and on the journey to sch.. i got my ans. :)
the Lord never forsakes those who seek Him. :)
Seek Him..... thats what i'll do.
Thank You
i need Your help.

don't you just hate dreams when it makes you and a person you like seem closer than normal..?
u feel good and nice.. and wake up feelin the total opposite.
esp so if it is the person you want to avoid, to stop liking.
she popped out of nowhere in my head.
argh. :S

she was in sch today.
was reallllly happy to see her there :)
talked a lil.. brought the book she wanted so badly to read.
"Blankets"
aaah.. beautiful book.
i identify with him alot. serious.
inspired me to go for graphic novels. :D
anyways... went off alone.
wanted to spend some time alone to think and ponder..
go to mac ritchie? haiz. soon.
went to nexus for rehearsal.
was GOOOD :) hahahaaha very very funny!!!
thanks chi for listenin to me tooo :)

finally made up my mind to stop it all..
what have i been doing man..
i think she's sick of me too.
who am i fooling?
that big slap of reality just came.
and i wished it was sooner..
... anyways..

i will
stop persuing
give it up
not let it happen again
not get into one until and unless i know the reason to
until God says i'm ready.

back to the good ol' anti-bgr days.
i should keep it that way.

Thanks God.

got off the phone with mojo
shared and talked :)
thank God for this bro...
i was once like him too.. maybe worse >_< haha
hallelujah

will post some pics soon.
keep serving
keep walking
keep pesevering everyone


cheers :)