left , right

all righty... been a not so good week of staying home rotting..:home is a great palce to be.. but not too long... feels caged up.
ironically laziness got the better of me most of the time not to go out -_-

finally went out to nexus to get some stuff today :þ

took a cab cuz steven wouldn't be stayin for long
and as i feared, the uncle only spoke chinese.. -_-u
i've never figured out what is left or right
i know zhuo and yu but i don't know which is which...
never bothered about it.. until now..
so i decided to save some face and sms roy which was which
thankfully the uncle in his speech revealed to me that zhuo = left
YaY~!! :D
whew... was reliefed.
so today i've learnt 2 words or rather clarified 2 words~ :)

ok i should improve my hopeless chinese... -_-
or else if my camp buddy in army is a mandarin speaker i'm dead.

2 languages i wanna learn (get better in)
-mandarin (i sound like an ang moh talkin chinese haha)
-malay

why malay? so i can communicate with my family.. haha
i'm peranakan yeah
don't wanna lose the roots!
(wanna learn to cook nonya food too wahahahaha)


reached nexus to get some videos
was watching pass productions and wow... we've come a loooong way.. :)
went home after.

laziness got the better of me again.. -_-

tomorrow will not be a "stay @ home and laze and rot and waste time fruitless" day!!

God intervened today.
was amazed.
thank You.
Your love.... beyond description, above understanding.


wanna come back to You O King.
many a time i drifted
but
many a time You took me back
how?
how can You trust me?
how can You believe in me?
how can You love me?

and You say it again
"Because I love You."

simply put. no need for any other reason nor answers.
beyond description, above understanding

the battle was won, and so will mine, with You.

the other night weirdy asked me
if there was one thing you could change in your past what would it be?

hmmm.
all i could think of is getting to know God earlier....
ya it sounds like a model answer.. but it ain't for me...
just thinking of my lower sec sch days living aimlessly and all... eargh.


was listening to an old song which somehow i never get sick of
Thank You - Alanis Morissette
very nostalgic song
song first hit me through the radio when i was having my chinese tution (yes i ACTUALLY have chinese tution)
haha... always quarrled with my tutor's daughter.
until to a point someone to us that people who always quarrle usually end up together.
o_O we were like "EEEEEEEEeeee NO WAY!!"

o wells.

God has been speaking to me through people and books
painting the truth through art.

was reading waking the dead by john eldredge
we live in a rational society where we rationalise anything and everything.
Jesus never spoke in parable without a reason.
Why'd He do that?
He could've told them bluntly the truth... but why all the parables?
because He knew that if he were to go for the cold hard truth, people would rationalise in disbelief.

so he chose to speak in parables. a way in which gets pass rationality.
they can't be rationalised but they hold certain truths.
just like fairytales, we don't rationalise them, but they hold truths.

my dean was speaking about it too.
"Art is not meant for propaganda, but to show the truth."

and again Pastor Ben said it too the week before
that the pictures in the tabernacle painted truth.

wow.
and thats what i'll do.


http://www.boltcity.com/copper/copper_016_fall.htm
haha i love this comic
speaks to me alot and heck ya i faced this.
after what i've been through.. i've regarded it like that too...
don't you just hate it when "love" gets in the way of your friendship?
when you start developing feelings for a friend and you suddenly can't seem to treat that person the same way as before.
you become overly sensitive to that friend of yours..
and you're still hiding it from the friend.
and after what feels like forever.. you let go.
when you look back.. you laugh at it. some small crush.

but ya it is a wonderful thing when God allows it :)




painting the truth.

book i'd recomend to read : Blankets by Craig Thompson
its....... wow. sad but wow.