prayer points

took some time earlier to pray
funny that i fasted so long that i got used to not doing the things i normally do (games & anime) and i keep myself busy with other stuff that i end up dieting instead of fasting and praying..

been asking God for a vision
to know where to go
to know what to do
to accomplish what He wants me to..
but as i found myself seeking and desiring, i found a tiny part of me pulling back, hesitating...
i couldn't think of a reason besides laziness...
but as i dug deeper with the Holy spirit
it was fear.
i was scared of the commitment it requires..
scared to commit..
and scared to move out of the comfort zone.
and of course... laziness.. -_-
prayed against it.

i really want the vision.

another area i've been praying was a more subtle but deadly thing..
pride.
i wanna rid it off my life..
funny the very sin i hate the most and made sure i didn't fall into it, and there it is seeping into my very heart through the years.
being in a specialised ministry and school
i found myself being more proud of my works
started since during drama days in sch..
people would often ask me for help or advice in drama productions for ess and such
i'd gladly help
but after a few years..
i didn't keep my guard up.. and pride just seeped in
and now sometimes in my video clips..

i've been asking God for a companion
no not a wife (at least not yet)
but a brother who shares the same passion as me
so that we can spur, inspire and learn from each other.. :)

but don't get me wrong, i'm not arrogant.
i'll gladly teach anyone who wants to learn ;)
in fact alot of the clips i do in svc, i do in wanting to inspire people to do better, really.
i don't want to be the best.
i'd like to disciple someone to be better than me (i used to struggle with this thought)
thus i showcase my talent to inspire.

it is said that an artist should be proud and confident of his works
i should be proud of the talent God gave me but i should also draw the line and guard my heart. credit should go to God, not me. :)

humility. i want to eat more humble pie.

God... i uphold these to you.