would i

i now find this a chore a do
cuz i know when ever i want to blog..
many things are gonna pour into my mind
and i have to type 'em out
i jus can't keep 'em in.

thus the reason why i've not blogged.


anyways a column on animation in singapore
was featured on LIFE! last week~ :D
was really excited reading them through
true that its a smallllllll industry..
but its not dead.
i was so happy reading it
reading about the people who chose this path
the life that comes along with it
and so on..
this is where my passion is.
bringing images to life,
telling a story through it.

i was squealing in my office hahaha!
its my joy

anyways i've caught on to the haruhi bug
which has plagued the world (well, not all)
like my previous post, i really enjoyed it
and i'm re-watching it -_-
i guess... somehow i so wish its all true.
and yeah, reality has its way on killing dreams.

but its good on me, keeps me awake
and not letting me get too far off.
i'm a dreamer and a child at heart
but those sides died in me as i moved into the real world
and boy how dull has it been -__-
and this show revived 'em~
i can identify with the show greatly
and thats probably why i love it
cuz.. i guess i don't know of anyone else who does..
many would criticise me and say those are childish things..


anyways enough of my praises of this show,
i've to learn to move on from it too
i've grown attached to it which is not good..
i need to go back to where i belong...
to God.

daily i've been thinking about a comic/anime i came up with
and its been draining me
its fun visualising and thinking of the possiblities and stories
but its got me so busy thinking that i've stopped thinking about God.

and this question hit me
what if God asked me to give up my dreams?
this very dream, to go and reach out and impact the people in japan and the rest of the world through animation/comic.
i couldn't answer.
even i knew the right answer but i couldn't give an immediete response..
this question was the very question i asked a dear brother of mine,
he couldn't answer it, he believed God won't ask him to give it up after what he's been through.
he's left church soon after.

and now this same question is for me.
i know God won't ask me to do it without a reason..
but thats not answering the question.
would i?
have i placed my dreams above God?
have i not consulted Him?

where is God in all these?

i've always seen myself working alone.
its fine time to stop.

o God help me.