thankful

was reading up psa105 and it struck at how blessed i was..
the whole chapter was just purely about thanksgiving and it went in to details from abraham to moses bringing out of egypt His people
i was thinking that during those times were also many downtimes like when the people rebelled against God and how He delivered them into enemy hands and such
and typically, when one is remembering their blessings, he'd remember the bad times too and lament about it but surprisingly, it was absent in this chapter
the blessings were overflowing.

i dunno how it connects to the above but suddenly this thought came to me
God doesn't see the down things in us too
He forgets our bad times and refuses to hold it against us
ironically we'd hold it against God for bad times
strange ain't it..


and as i read each thanksgiving
i tried to recall mine too
it's impt to "count" one's blessings as a testimony to others and yourself
because i've often come to a point asking myself
how real is God to me?
What's God's work in me?
my testimony for Him?

so i started to recall when i first came to church
fastforward to now and yes, it's a miracle i'm doing what i'm doing
and where i am now too.
though i love drawing i may have ended up doing IT in poly
and just be a programmer (not that they are bad)
but now i have a dream way bigger than that!
i want to draw for Him
to illustrate His goodness
and i want the world to see it
that God is a good God
and He's so very real.

recently as i was doing some random thinking..
i realised that
God is still creating things
it's like duh right
but personally to me, its amazing..
all i've been hearing and reading
God made the world
He made adam & eve
He sent Jesus to die for us
He made the skies and the stars and the moons
notice it's all in past tense?
gave me the mpression that God made everything and left it to run on it's own
(leave it to science to explain everything and you forget that God made it all)
God still makes people.
everyday babies are borned
He carefully creates them in the womb
creates their soul

fearfully and wonderfully made.


I don't want to be a NATO.

have been wasting alot of precious time playing games and doing nothing!
argh!!