dreams

Shirin: hihi
Shirin: i was just thinking...
juz: yup yup yup?
Shirin: actually i have been thinking of this for a while....
Shirin: i don't think God particularly minds what choices we make as long as we live righteously by the word of God
juz: yuppy
juz: it's one's motives behind the choices they make that God questions ;)
Shirin: so i think it may not matter so much which school we go to or what choices we make, cos God knows what we're gonna choose anyways and whatever we do he will make sure we're okay, and even plan sumthing for us along the way.....
Shirin: as long as we dont do bad things.....
juz: haha yaa i came to that thought b4 too
juz: just keep trusting, if it's something He wants us to do, He'll definitely help us to get it done
juz: its just those "what ifs'" at the back of my mind hindering me :S
juz: but i do know that God knows our every desires :D
juz: and like you said
juz: what we choose to do, so long as it follows His words/ glorify Him, is good
juz: seek first the kingdom and all these things shall be added unto you
juz: seek first God's home if that's your aim He'll be there
juz: God promises us this (and i hold it onto God) when you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me
Shirin: mmm....ya....the difficultee is in identifying him....some ppl think they're doing things for God....some ppl think they've found God but i dont know why i should doubt that they did.....i wouldn't know would i?
juz: yup we wouldn't really know
juz: God is a personal one.. to each He ministers differently
juz: but out of that ppl's works then can we see his fruits
juz: if it's God honouring or self honouring
Shirin: ah yes
juz: :)
juz: you mind if i blog this conversation?
juz: haha i'm seeing new things as we share
Shirin: i don't mind
Shirin: :)
juz: cuz i dun really talk about this though its a growing concern
juz: so how have you been recntly?
Shirin: me....honestly, tired.
Shirin: im trying my best in something but i dunno if i will pull through....
juz: ooooo
Shirin: but sometimes i wonder if my best is enough....or whether it even really is my best. may be i could do better but im not focused nough
juz: hahaha!! yes!! i know that feeling!!
juz: perfectionist aren't we :P
Shirin: hee~
juz: hahaha
juz: jus do whatever you can and don't regret it
juz: do what you can and for those you can't, let God handle ;)
Shirin: yes, the worst thing is regret....but if you know you've done everything in your power and still dun make it....at least u know you've given your all
juz: yuuppp
juz: just trust yourself
juz: honestly i know i find it hard to trust myself though
juz: Shirin haha
Shirin: haha...that's a tough one
Shirin: ya ya.....hahahaha
juz: but u noe wads the amazing thing? God trusts in us alot haha i find it hard to think that God could do that yet alone love me but He does
juz: and so, if He, who knows everything we have done and will do, trusts us who are we not to trust? :P
Shirin: He trusts us?! haha....mmmm....that's a thought....:)
juz: its the same thing, if God can forgive us for the oh so many wrongs we've done, who are we not to forgive others and ourselves?
Shirin: that's true...and that's reassuring....
juz: God entrusted us with a mission ya ;)
juz: if u read the first chapter of the book of joshua i like it how He encouraged and re-assured joshua
juz: not once, but 3 times
juz: He said be strong and courageous
juz: and He said this because He knows us inside, He knew Joshua was afraid
juz: and told him to be strong, to be brave
juz: and He reassured him
juz: just like how all of us need reassurance once in a while :)
Shirin: yeah we do...
Shirin: we need assurance that at the end of the day, things will be well, and even in the event if we fail, that we can pick ourselves up again....
juz: yea
juz: read the book of psalms
juz: initially i thought its a boring book since its very wordy and long
juz: but its not
juz: its cut into short bite size entries
juz: and its what many ppl term it as king david's blog
juz: its honest, and it helps me to relate with him
juz: his confusion, his sorrow, his joy
juz: the way he saw God is amazing
juz: at his darkest moments he still believed
Shirin juz: my works are yours cool...
Shirin： what does it mean when God seems to be silent?
juz: when He "didn't reply you"
juz: king david wrote about it too
juz: how he felt
juz: despite his suffering He was never disappointed with God
juz: though he mourned, he cried
juz: some entries start off with his sorrow but ends off full of faith
juz: sometimes makes me think about his thought process
juz: :P
Shirin: now im seeing psalms in a new light :D
juz: yay~

taken from msn
much thanks to shirin~
hope it's still as encouraging since we last talked!

and to the you and you
we're in the same boat ok
so never feel that you're the only one facing this issue

personally i don't think it's wrong to face it
it's decisions we have to make
and our future lies with those decisions.

we have our own hopes and dreams to glorify Him
and you know,
the wilder it is, the more the fun
the bigger it is, the more it seems impossible
and we all know, God loves impossibles ;)
thats why dreams are dreams in the first place

i wonder what were abraham's dreams/vision when God asked him to leave home
that he'd have offsprings as numerous as the sand on the shore
try imagining/picturing that.
it's pretty wild and impossible if you ask me.


and finally,
i'm lookin for a drawing buddy!
sketchcrawlin
and having fun

drawing alone gets pretty boring fast
no one to share the process with >_<




our abilities shouldn't be our source of confidence.
something i'll need to adjust to