personally

i remembered Ps Jeff once asking
"All those who've been in church for more than 4 yrs please raise your hand."
i happily raised
now he asked
"Put down your hand if you've read your bible finish at least once."
mine remained up there high for everyone to see me.

ashamed?
you bet.

ashamed not just that people saw me, but rather, after being a believer for years, i've not completed reading the one basic and essential book that is a fundamental for all believers.

i never was disciplined in reading the word.
people often mentioned that God spoke to them, dropped a word in their heart
i wanted that
but it didn't occur to me that it was through the word or through their vast knowledge of the word that allowed God to speak to them.

it became an issue of how much do i value God's word?
how do i see God's word as?
just a book?

when i was a young believer years ago then, i told myself to read it like a storybook
it did worked awhile but i was just reading without much reflecting and before long i
found myself constantly dozing off. (i dislike reading)

as i finally understood the concept of it quite recently, it dawned on me
why am i limiting God's way of speakin to me by my knowledge of Him??
i've been asking for a word, but God can't speak to me cuz i don't read the word!
do i expect Him to speak to me by other means?
who am I to demand that?


yesterday's sermon had a verse and a promise i cling on to dearly.
seek the Lord with my all and He will be found.
my ill-disciplined in reading the word shows my desire in seeking God,
i'd procrastinate, as if a chore
but why am i able to read more christian literature than the word?
that struck me at how i saw the word.
it is HIS word.

the very one that speaks and breathes
the very one that changed people's lives
the very same one they have, i have.

a passion for God
a passion in expanding His kingdom
i want.

i've skipped my basics and went on to intermidiate
it's really God's grace and mercy that i'm where i am.
but thats gonna change.

this reading really encouraged me
http://www.worshipmatters.com/2006/01/taking-gods-wor/



back to the basics
where it really matters


thanks Dad