personally

jus came back from camp!


reflections

despite not knowing about 90% of the people, it was still rather enjoyable!
learnt stuff and had a breakthrough in praying for one another
workshop was really ministering, 3 people prayed for me
each giving me a word and i was really encouraged!
He hears me.

i've not shouted angrily at people for the longest time and on the day i came,
i was tasked to do so, which was ,seriously, really hard.
the game we played that night required me to do so and honestly i was shocked when i shouted at someone, is this me? sure i've acted before, but still, i coudn't bring it in myself at first
the thoughts that ran through my mind was quite a thought or shall i say, scary.
like what xingni shared the next day, it was a glimpse of who i would've become if wasn't a believer.
the game lasted 4 hours which felt like 10 instead!
and by then we were all dead tired!
i was encouraged by how the teams stood up for one another, it felt like those scene u'd see on tv where ppl would sacrifice for each other, but here i was seeing it for real.

the mental tiredness fustrated me to no end throughout camp
i couldn't focus well in prayer for long, i'd drift off the moment i think of something visual and i'm off to the dreaming realm instead of the spirit realm
it really throws me off as i have to retrace my steps back and most often
i'd forgotten what i was praying about!
then guilt comes in and i'd apologise to God
just to start over again.. and the cycle continues..
it happened both days of the camp and by the last night i was exhausted
but i really wanted to seek God! i cried out in prayer

then i knew what it was to really seek God with my all.
even though i was really distracted
i believed He heard my cries.
another thing which came in was simply this: guilt doesn't come from God
that gave me more strength

i want to strengthen my prayer stamina.

the affirmation cum holy comm was a great time of appreciating and recounciliation for all of us, there was someone i wanted to talk to but wasn't there sadly, had a nice time of talking and appreciating my cg mates and also was really encouraged by how i've impacted them which i never saw it in myself. talked to some people i really wanted to thank and also talked to hui ying, an animation student whom i got to know, i fought back a tear as i shared to her about my passion for it and how i ended up in animation which, till now, a part of my life i will never forget and always enjoy sharing it to others, it really strengthened me as well, i was thankful of the opportunity.

a passion not talked about (or acted upon) is a dead one.
i find this really true.

found this photo which really doesn't need any descriptions
Forever by *EvilxElf from deviantart
a picture paints a thousand words, colored by feelings.