personally

woo! just got back not long ago!
today was a rather fruitful and a happy day if i may say so lol
my mum came into my room and sat down and we just talked, it felt like ages since we last did and i really treasured it. it was a good time
just the previous day i spent some time with my dad asking him about his day which i believe.. was my first time in my life.. yes.. for those who don't know, i'm not close with my dad and had bad experiences with him before, am thankful for God for changing my heart towards him, seriously, was glad to be able to do so!
anyways cg was great as well, had a good and thought provoking one and also a good time with the group
met up with a dear friend to talk and clarify somthin thats bothered me, it was a rather awkward at first as i couldn't express what i wanted to say clearly in words LOL (yes, i am like that, consider yourself privaleged to see that side of me LOL)
though many will know me as a talkative, loud, quirky one, i can be 'shy' too when it comes to expressing myself
one thing is cuz i'm scared i appear childish (which i think i do!)
inside that loud confident me is a lil child (which can get real emo at times)
which, i'm afraid to show people i guess.. (yes, i've used 'which' 3 times in a row)
anyways at the end of it all, it was a really good time spent
in fact i was really happy about it as if i found a new friend and couldn't stop smiling inside lol
went down for a family gathering at my aunt's place which was good as well
after which i headed down to town to meet jo & tay for late night coffee chill out and a few rounds at the lan shop(!!) i never get tired of these 2 jokers and had a good time with them as we drove from place to place.
reached home at 3.

tired, but really fulfilled. :)

oh for all to know i've recently purchased a 2nd hand camera which also is my official first camera!!!! super happy with it la. its a Contax G1 if you're wondering..
will post the photos up soon.


and lastly,
to be honest,
i'd really want to go to school and its like everyone's asking me why am i not doing so..
i need that reason.
God if You want me to go, give me that reason to go.
have had a few talks about further studies with various people throughout the week
and some really made me think more about it.
sometimes i have to keep reminding myself why i chose it.
sometimes i have to ask myself, is it my stubborn self that's blinding myself?
and is it pride that i dare not choose otherwise and have my parents say 'see?? i told u studies first, now you've already wasted 1 yr.'

why am i not going to school?
finance.
i feel i learn at work faster than in school.
i can support parents.
i want to know what i want to major in (yes i can do that in school as well..)


i officially start work next week. full time. (much to people's surprise)
if its Your plans,
intervene this 3 months.