sharing

time to post.
jus to update everyone and myself too as i type. (helps me to reflect)
recently i've been chatting with chi
she's back home in vietnam
sadly she's going through some tough times with her ex
ironic how i can help her so much with her relationship problems i can't help my own
i guess love makes one irrational

i've to say she's one strong girl and that her ex
should feel really fortunate to have her.
she's been waiting for him
and now though he's scared to go further,
(he's even scared to meet her face to face)
she's patient..
giving him the nudge he needs but not lead him, she just waits.
and she really cares and loves him. (though disappointed)
she's nervous cuz both of them have changed alot through over time
but she's willing to start from scratch, getting to know him once again.
she's determined.
:)
and yeah, i was like what on earth is wrong with her ex!?!
i'll hope the best for them

she's coming back soon too~
haven't seen her for ages.

and speaking of ages,
i met weirdy 3 weeks ago..
was quite nervous actually cuz we haven't met for a yr and well..
after what happened between us.. i don't know what she's thinking
she suddenly just popped up online and asked me out
i didn't want to get carried away so i asked her to ask my other classmate along
i was nervous
cuz when we ended, she asked how about waiting till she finished her studies (she's my junior btw)
i didn't promise her anything, but ya.
and we finally meet up (was 2hrs late though >_<)
she's the same ol' bubbly and chirpy girl i've known 2yrs ago :)
she kept talking about the past events (like the sms i sent after i gave her her christmas pressie) which got me thinking about what she asked..
could it be?
i dared not think.

i kept myself busy and let jayson (my classmate) do all the talking with her while i wander off.
i thought the feelings died off.
guess i was wrong.
and thus began a battle inside
it did helped that i was to go off for service though
but she asked about meeting after that cuz she would be in the area by then

after service i went with my cg for baybeats
she went there with jayson and decided that we meet there
we walked there from nexus while they took a bus hahaha
anyways..
the battle ended there.
when i arrived jayson told me they met her boyfriend on the way
my heart pinched.
but God eased that pain away as the music played.. and drowned out what was inside me
and i thank God so much for that. really.
i'm fine now and i'm moving on
she has her's and i have my God

learning not to fall in love so easily
keeping God's love

in His time.
i know it.
God pulled me out for a reason :D